Why in the world would anyone want to post disgusting pictures of themselves and display their actual weight and size for all to see? I've probably gone crazy. Seriously, haha! Maybe this is my breaking point... or maybe I haven't even reached that point yet. Whatever the reason, this is what the end of my rope looks like.
I plan to post a progress update on the 1st of every month. A progress update that will include "un-doctored" photos of myself in normal poses, normal clothing. I will not try to pick a flattering angle, wear shirts the skim over the rolls, or disguise my fat under a "sucker-in thing." They will be honest photos. At first, it is going to be horribly embarrassing to post these pictures of myself but my theory is that it will be much more embarrassing to have posted these pictures and then make no progress. Hopefully that will help push me when I want to give up. Hopefully...
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Who Am I?
I'm starting this blog, at the end of my rope, trying to figure out who I am and why I have allowed myself to get to the place that I am. I am a 27 year old woman, a happily married wife, and proud mother of 2 boys. I have family that loves me and friends that support me.
Yet, I have allowed my bad habits to become addictions. Addictions that have taken over my life and hurt my family -and myself. I admit it, I have an addiction. Not to what you'd normally associate with an addiction. I've never smoked a cigarette, never took a sip of an alcoholic beverage in my life. My addiction is to food.
Food makes me happy. Food comforts me. Food lifts my spirits when I'm down. Food excites me.
I need food when I'm bored. I need food when I'm sad. I need food when I have something to celebrate.
Food fills some kind of void in my life... But what I'm trying to figure out is what that void is. After all, I am a happily married wife and proud mother of 2 healthy boys. Shouldn't that be enough?
If you find yourself reading this blog, don't be expecting a "How To Lose Weight" kind of thing. I'm writing this blog to be more of a "How To Find Myself" kind of thing. I am almost mortified to begin knowing that I'll be forcing myself to post embarrassing pictures, display disgusting numbers, and share intimate feelings. But if this doesn't work, what else will?
Yet, I have allowed my bad habits to become addictions. Addictions that have taken over my life and hurt my family -and myself. I admit it, I have an addiction. Not to what you'd normally associate with an addiction. I've never smoked a cigarette, never took a sip of an alcoholic beverage in my life. My addiction is to food.
Food makes me happy. Food comforts me. Food lifts my spirits when I'm down. Food excites me.
I need food when I'm bored. I need food when I'm sad. I need food when I have something to celebrate.
Food fills some kind of void in my life... But what I'm trying to figure out is what that void is. After all, I am a happily married wife and proud mother of 2 healthy boys. Shouldn't that be enough?
If you find yourself reading this blog, don't be expecting a "How To Lose Weight" kind of thing. I'm writing this blog to be more of a "How To Find Myself" kind of thing. I am almost mortified to begin knowing that I'll be forcing myself to post embarrassing pictures, display disgusting numbers, and share intimate feelings. But if this doesn't work, what else will?
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